FFF speaking
Saturday, December 08, 2007
i see that many have mistaken that this is my blog....lol.
This is, honestly speaking, my SECONDARY SCH blog=)
So yup, no more updates here anymore...unless under rare conditions, um, like now.
Bye Bye!!
lost myself. my soul. @
8:53 PM
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Loo and i dinnered and we chatted about school.
Then she told me she's feeling tired of it.
I thought i felt quite okie about it, but when i think further, i do feel weary.
Not about the workload, but... ...
lost myself. my soul. @
9:21 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
I'll like to just start with a brief introduction. It's 1015pm, sunday. There is econs test tmr, chem test on tue, and geog test on thurs. But i haven finish like...maybe half of econs. O..K. And then i decided to give myself a short break and drop by loo's blog, and lo and behold, i'm now supposed to think of 10 random things bout myself.
And i can't resist using this excuse to stop studying and start blogging, and then blame loo for bad econs result later. haha. joking la.
Before i start, i must applaud loo for her random facts, cos they are rather random. And insightful of course. Makes me like my bestie even more actually, though i can't really point out why=)
alright alright(the tone of our kindest history teacher in sec sch, anyone rmb?). i shall start then.
10 weird/random things about me.1)I recently started to feel good about econs, partly due to the sense of acomplishment i get when i jot down notes and graph in the CC in orange/green pen, and partly due to the fact that it seems to be a subject most people in my school, just like me, cannot really grasp. The everyone-else-is-as-lousy-as-me mentality is working here, gee.
2)I'm rather self concious, and feel awkward and uncomfortable in certain circumstances that people may take for granted. But usually i pretend to brush it off.
3)I can't deal with critisim properly.
4)I do NOT like the behavior of cursing, i think it is a disgrace to civilisation and is utterly uncouth(is this how you spell it?).
5)The posibility of me being a bee is actually much much higher than me being a SPELLING bee. That's how bad i spell.
6)I recently discovered a love for chocolate shake. Apparently i'm on my way to middle-age obesity.
7)I'm a people-pleaser. Maybe not to the extent that i'm a door mat, but it's very hard for me to say NO sometimes.
8)As much as i love my current sch now, the truth is that i prefer my group of friends in my secondary school. Seems like everyone was less complicated then.
9)I think i've become a better person after entering my current sch. Becoming a better christian to be exact, of course not very good yet, but trying.
10)I actually agree with loo's point about what's good religion when it is the people around us whom we despise? I'm quite proud of her for thinking this way=) But sadly, sometimes i act this way too. If you are a christian, thinking this way may ease your disgust for that person: Jesus died for ________'s sin too.
Oh, i'll like to share a quote by mother teressa i just read in TIMES:
"It's not enough for us to say "I love God" but i do not love my neighbour."
I'm trying, and i think you should too.
(Warning: At this point i am going to blabber about my religious point of view, but it's abit side track, so please scroll down to see what i write if you are interested.)
PEOPLE WHO SHOULD CONTINUE THIS:
1) Viv (if she is not on hiatus)
2) Wong
3) -
4) -
5) -
Yea, that's about all. i insist on not conforming to the rule of choosing 5 people to continue this.
Random ramblingsRecalling complaints about irritating people this week, I can't help but talk about this now. I know some people can be rather insensitive, irritating, anoying sometimes. But who haven been like this before? And if you actually choose pople to love, namely those who are lovable, understanding and nice to be with, i'll say that's sweet and quite an easy task is'nt it? Not exactly noble.
To christians out there reading my blog(i know most probably there isnt any), i'm not saying you must be noble or what, what i'm trying to say is that if you act like that, loving people selectively, then i can't see what is the difference between you and a non-christian.I'm not very good with my bible cos i only started reading it regularly after so many many years so i cant quote the exact phrase. But i rmb something that says being a christian isn't a bed of roses, it comes with lots of suffering actually. Such suffering include trying not to conform to the fallen world, and also loving unadorable people.
I know it's hard, so pray for strength and love from our God.
Just to share, but at some point of time i actually loath this person you and i most probably have on our minds now, but not anymore=) And the one who benefit the most out of this is not her, but me. Nothing come close to releasing disgust and embracing love.
Ok i know i ramble enought already and i most probably am starting to appear like an annoying hypocrite who like to preach. sorry if i've been insensitive in any ways in what i wrote above. If i have been hurtful or wrong in anyway, feel free to point it out to me.
To end it off, i want to disclaim somethings:
- What i wrote is not directed at loo. i know people like to assume this, but it's not la.
-I'm not forcing you to love your enemies now. I don't have such power. Just hoping you wll reflect.
-I still have people i find irritating and am trying to love, though not every successful everytime.
-I have not putting anyone down okie.
The End
lost myself. my soul. @
10:15 PM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I was chatting with my parents and a random taxi driver in a cab on our way home from church about the korean hostages in Afghan.
They were saying something like, it's the korean christians' fault for getting themselves into all this trouble. They should have preached somewhere else.
And i was like, but if no one is willing to go afghan, the people there will not even have a chance to know God. It's not fair.
But they are defnitely not listening to me.
I felt that missionaries are meant to venture out of their comfort zones. It's written in the bible that we should spread the gospel throughout the world. But my mum said it's impossible to change the minds of afghan people. It's futile to go there.
But it's not. God can make everything possible. He is like addidas---Impossible is nothing. So why didn't he save the korean hostages? in fact, why did one korean hostage died?
I guess all this is in God's plan. God has a time for everything. We are mere humans, we will not be able to understand every part of God's plan which was created in his infinite wisdom. That is perfectly logical right?
I told my mum that these korean missionaries has displayed great courage and faith. They are willing to die for God.
My mum thinks that this is being silly and irresponsible.
And then suddenly i felt so guilty. Will i be able to put down everything i had now and sacrifice my life for God if he ask me to do so? To go preach in some danger zone that promises like maybe 1% chance of success, or even survival to be frank.
I don't know. Think about it, if persecution time comes, and this masked soldier points a gun in your head and force you to denounce God or you will be killed, what will you do?
How far are you willing to go for your faith?
lost myself. my soul. @
12:21 PM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Not being very productive here. Haven really started studying yet. ARGH.
lost myself. my soul. @
6:18 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Not rebutting loo here. Just putting across my point of view in case loo's blog entry stumble some people. BTW, the "you" i used in this entry does not refer to loo=) Refer to the general public.It really just boils down to who is more important to you, God or friends. It also show how much you are willing to give up for God, and also who you deem as easier to forsake.
If a christian's mentality is "God understands", he/she might as well just go and have pre-marital sex since everyone is doing it now and God will understand that this is the norm in today's society. Doesn't sound good to me. Shouldnt it be the other way round, like you listening and obeying God's command instead of God loosening his principles to accomodate this world?
And by saying "God will understand", you mean friends' won't?
Sadly, most of the time, people don't. Not only non-christians, but also christians.
That's why it's so hard to be a christian for life when you're living in a fallen world.
lost myself. my soul. @
10:38 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
I haven finish my PI. I have no mood/stamina do think about a good event/feasibility.
I need to end in PI AND GEOG essay both on friday.
I haven finish geepee hw for tml.
HOW PRODUCTIVE.
i shall not use the com for games on weekdays now. i shall use only on weekend. PLEASE.
i'm so tired lor.
RARR. but nvm, i know god will make all this work eventually=)
lost myself. my soul. @
11:44 PM
